In difficulties

Time is flying by so fast, happiness and sadness come but none of them stays for ever. These days I have mixture of feelings; sadness, happiness, excitement and ..., it's been 9 month since the new period of Sepehr's back pain which is coming and going periodically has started but the problem is this time the pain showed up in a harsh way. We knew he need a surgery but kind of ignored it hoping pool and excersize will help, now that he can not walk or sit we decided once for all he has to go under the surgery. Two weeks from now he has the operation. It is hard for me, having no parents here to rely on, and even worse that I can not tell our parents over there because Sepehr's mom is also having surgery and I don't want to make more trouble. Therefore I am full of different feelings and just hoping for the best, may God help us.

Live the life you always wanted to live by Paulo Coelho

Even if you were to study your own life in detail and relive each moment that you suffered, sweated and smiled beneath the sun, you would still never know exactly when you had been useful to someone else.

A life is never useless. Each soul that came down to Earth is here for a reason. The people who really help others are not trying to be useful, but are simply leading a useful life. They rarely give advice, but serve as an example. 

Do one thing: live the life you always wanted to live. Avoid criticizing others and concentrate on fulfilling your dreams. This may not seem very important to you, but God, who sees all, knows that the example you give is helping Him to improve the world. And each day, He will bestow more blessings upon it. 

 And when the Unwanted Visitor arrives, you will hear it say: ‘It is fair to ask: “Father, Father, why hast thou forsaken me?” ‘But now, in this final second of your life on Earth, I am going to tell you what I saw: I found the house clean, the table laid, the fields ploughed, the flowers smiling. I found each thing in its proper place, precisely as it should be. You understood that small things are responsible for great changes. ‘And for that reason, I will carry you up to Paradise.’

Life is so good

I am enjoying my life with this weather:
Pictures will be published
From yesterday when I talked with my professor about my problem and he helped my out, my moments have became extremely joyful. I had a series of relaxation after it:
1. I came out of his office and it was raining.
2. After classes I went grocery shopping. ( I like grocery shopping during week around 3 when it is not crowded)
3. Sepehr helped me making a new Turkish dinner (Beyti Kebab) which he loved. It is always good to do something together.
4. Skype with mom.
5. Lala

Today I woke up at 10!!!! ( I slept very little the night before ) and had the cozy feeling under the warm blanket, went to school and had the class with the best Government professor of the world (Mr. Schiender), now I am blogging and drinking a hot cup of cocoa milk and enjoying my life.

P.S. I am still waiting for the interview and kind of worrying.

The Unknown number letter

Sitting in the office, I was staring at a hanging on the wall with this massage: " For I know the plans that I have for you,’ declares the LORD, ‘plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope. ‘Then you will call upon Me and come and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. - Jeremiah 29:11-12"

At that time I was staring at this and thinking about believing in God, I am talking about the true belief. I was trying to remember everything about this matter and make myself more calm by knowing God is always listening to me.

Now I am sitting here, in our living room and trying to study "amines" for tomorrow, and thinking about my future, the future I have always wanted badly and somehow get the peace away from my soul as it makes me to worry more. I want to remember that hanging with every details and other experiences I have had, and I want to talk with God and say to him: I really want it happen, I am in though period of my life right now. I understand you know everything happening in my heart and I know that I have to be calm by remembering you because you have the best plan for me. Please help me to be what you want for me and make me understand it is what I should be happy for.

Thank you

Your Sepid

Same with her

I am living in a city that is 6876 miles away from my parents', so that's natural that I often miss them really deeply. I think they have the same feeling like me. My mom just called and was saying she had a dream about me while she was asleep, it was really interesting to me as I had the same dream about my self last weak in sleep. That's how two souls could be connected apart from how far persons are from each other. I am her child and she is my mom forever. Love you mom.

Thankful

Maybe nothing extraordinary has happened these days to brag about but we are all healthy in overall, just Sepehr has some chronic lower back pain which is bothering him during last couple of weeks. I am waiting for an interview and really want the invitation for that so I am trying to be calm and think positive. Hopefully I will be known in about 1 or 1.5 month therefore that's not a long period. 

Yesterday was the thanksgiving and every year Sepehr's uncle invites everyone to his house but this year something happened for him. We were thinking what to do that at last came with the idea to invite Sepehr's cousin and one of my cousins who moved recently here. This was my first time making a turkey, but it came out great.

We went for shopping today from 8 in the morning, I don't know if it was because of the black Friday or what that we were so enthusiastic about going out, we came back at 3 in the afternoon, exhausted with lots of money spent. Now I am sitting here thinking  about the money I spent over clothes and if it was necessary and have a fluctuating feeling of satisfaction and regret, because I had ordered so many things online also. But I think the satisfaction will override the second one at last ;) 

Really we need to watch out and try to save more instead of buying unnecessary items.

OK, that was about these days, until next time.

Be strong enough to let go, and patient enough to wait for what you deserve.